Midnight musings
Its so close to christmas; my most favourite festive seasons. Its almost midnight and I'm in bed trying to clear my laptop off unwanted pictures, documents and anything which irks a bad memory; almost as if I'm trying to clear my mind.
I found this photo of me from last year; taken around the same time. Things seemed a lot different back then. I was trying to find happiness in silly things, indulging in silly joys and just about keeping it together and putting on a brave face. For all i know; it did work. And I really was happy for all that it's worth.
Letter to Autumn.
Dear Autumn,
You resonate life. A life that is of constant change. Just like the leaves changing and falling from a glistening green to a rusty brown. A reminder that nothing is permanent; people, friendship, love and life itself. You bring with yourself winds of change, ever so subtly. The sun still shines, it still is bright but you make the breeze chillier, the air crisper. It feels like you are only preparing us for the big change ;Winter. Just like life, it takes time to take it all in and settle in it. With occasional rains,you remind us that it is ok to cry.
You remind me that change makes me restless; unsettled. The yellow leaves on the pathway makes me realise, that the year is drawing itself to a close. It oddly gives me a shiver or two. It makes me look back and evaluate the bygone months and the way they have been. Millions things have changed since you last came; yet a million things remain the same.
Its funny;
You resonate life in ever so familiar way,
Yet I sit here; feeling still the same way.
You resonate life. A life that is of constant change. Just like the leaves changing and falling from a glistening green to a rusty brown. A reminder that nothing is permanent; people, friendship, love and life itself. You bring with yourself winds of change, ever so subtly. The sun still shines, it still is bright but you make the breeze chillier, the air crisper. It feels like you are only preparing us for the big change ;Winter. Just like life, it takes time to take it all in and settle in it. With occasional rains,you remind us that it is ok to cry.
You remind me that change makes me restless; unsettled. The yellow leaves on the pathway makes me realise, that the year is drawing itself to a close. It oddly gives me a shiver or two. It makes me look back and evaluate the bygone months and the way they have been. Millions things have changed since you last came; yet a million things remain the same.
Its funny;
You resonate life in ever so familiar way,
Yet I sit here; feeling still the same way.
Birthday shenanigans.
So, yesterday marked my 27th year on this earth. Twenty seven?!? Boy! do i feel like a granny!
With the monthly cycle not favouring my celebratory spirits, I spent the whole day on bed with the worst cramps ever. To add up to my already dampened spirits, it was pouring outside the whole day. To quote Chandler Bing "Could it BE more depressing?". He he.
Notes to self.
♥ You are NOT perfect. And thats ok. Everyone has dark circles, blemishes and/or some other issue. Real life doesn't come with an airbrush tool. Embrace the flaws because 'perfect' is boring!
♥ Its ok to cry. Let it out. As they say "The sooner you let yourself cry, the sooner you'll be able to smile again". Being strong for too long and taking it in silence just clutters your mind with anxiety and unwanted insecurities. Its fine to lash out your anger/frustration to whoever concerned; if they have let you down time over time.
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